Saturday, March 2, 2013

The Blues

Assalamualaikum and hi guys! 

So for today as of 2nd of March 2013 I am sitting here alone in my so called sweet escape day and ignore the world. 
Basically today I am travelling in Penang with all my devices Note Blackberry and with my laptop together.
Yeah I am carrying my bag pack as well. 

I know its kind of strange. As how the title is, I am on my Blues Mood right now. 
Few things changes my life that makes everything esp in Penang seems awfull, at times. 
It is not like I am not happy with my life but assignments, tests, past relationship affected me these past few days. 
Maybe I've been apart from my love ones in KL perhaps make everything easier for me be in melancholy mood. 

Actually I had never ever experienced this before.
I am the kind of person who actually NOT in bad mood for too long. 

I talked to a good friend of mine about my feelings. 
I exposed myself with more sunlight every day (I believe to the fact that sunlight actually helps to boost our mood! That is why I prefers hot sunny days rather than cold rainy days). 
I even call my parents more often nowadays. 
I also occupied myself with things that I enjoy like listen to music and of course jogs everyday.

Alhamdulilah I am getting better now. 
BUT there is still lil blues in me. 
So I decided to have a little sweet escape today. I am ho ho ho hoping that when I get back to campus later I am ready to face the world again. 
(Sorry I dont want to use words like depressed, emo, sad or PMS. 
It just gonna makes me feel bad about myself lol). 

The reason why I am choosing to be alone for a short while because 
I want to find myself again and because I just love myself 
I cannot let these negative part of take control. 
If I letting myself feel negative on the inside, I may become negative on the outside. 
Both of these negativity feed off of each other and create an ominous outcome. 
I might become 'stuck' in the blues.

SO that is all for today. 
I hope ladies out there wont do what I am doing right now
travelling alone because it is hella dangerous out here. 
And if they do, please do tell your close friends or partner about your plan. 
In my case I told my close friend as I don't wanna make that special someone worry about me

I would like to add something:
Take a moment to appreciate where you are right now! 
Its important to continue working on yourself as a person for your entire life. 
Don’t forget to love the person you are, 
and that is what I am doing right now. 

Thursday, February 21, 2013



So it is early in the morning time, Thursday 4.00 am and I didnt actually plan to post right now because it supposedly the time for me to zzz. Anyway, since I already here I am gonna write something to do with love (wait dont you eww me yet!) since we are still on the month of love. 

I am a type of person who considering February as the month of love rather than Valentines Day 
because yeah there are people giving roses to their women everywhere 
and romantic movies are playing on TV for this month haha. 

This month is officially my personal month of love as well <3

SO, for this Falling in Love February
I am actually do think everyone everyyyyone including me should replace words like 'hate' with love! 
I mean yeah why not. 
When I walk to class and random people (guys or girls) randomly smile at me 
well actually could made my day and I think it is a simplest way to spread love!

I also strongly believe that love could actually make us happy of course 
and that positive energy will attract good things in our daily life. 
Don't you just hope someone would be there with you at your utmost bad time 
so that you could share things that screwed up your day? 
Without love, will that person who could be your friend or your mom be there listen to you?

So before I could spread love or give love, 
I think I should allow myself to falling deeply in love with who I am
With the life I live. 

Why do this? 
Because by loving yourself you are opening yourself up to receive more outside love than you are even prepared for! 

My 'falling deeply in love with myself' doesnt mean that for you to extend less love to others. 
Give love to people around us is crucial if we want to be loved. 
(I cannot even imagine life on this Earth without mother love! 
I hope Emak doing good while performing her Umrah right now).  
I think how humans (whether living with love or hate) is the one that draws the atmosphere of this world.

I've begin to realize that thru my acceptance of life's imperfections, it's important to dedicate some energy to a positive self relationship each day as it is to ermm extend energy to relationships 
with family members and friends. 
In the end, we would benefit from being able to 
receive the same love for the SELF 
as we receive from others.

So, that is all from me right now since I should go to sleep hours ago..
..and for the fact that get enough sleep is one of the way to love yourself hehe.
Goodbye, Assalamualaikum :)